A couple weeks ago I made the decision to return to attending church service. For some time now I have delayed returning to church. Of course the purity group that I attend is hosted through one of the local churches, but still I avoided Sunday service. I imagined that at some point I would return to Sunday service, but I had set no time line for when that would be.

I was spending my Sunday’s on a soccer field, and for a time, that provided an outlet which took the place of the time I had been spending in sexual immorality. To some degree soccer had replaced the sexual addiction that had been there. Certainly a much healthier outlet, soccer was the transition I needed, but still had the potential to become my next addiction.

Returning to church was not difficult although making the decision to return required some persuasion. Observations by my wife and contemplation on my part lead me to a better understanding of vision. What kind of model was I establishing for my children? I knew I was not building a strong foundation, but my conviction to do so was not there. Maybe for a time it was good to give my wife some space spiritually, but it was time to make some changes. My vision has to include my family and I need to model healthy habits that will give them a foundation for success.

Sitting through some of the sermons though makes for a challenge. Being preached at is not a favorite past-time. Listening to a motivational speech does nothing to motivate me. The pastor can save it for someone else. I would get more from someone standing up there and talking to me like a fellow Christian. I have faults; they have faults, let’s not forget that. I don’t need to be shamed into repentance, but if I can glean something worthwhile from being there it is worth it. It is worth it to give my children a foundation for Christianity.

For the most part I have enjoyed Sunday service; I have just had problems getting up and ready. Finding the enthusiasm to get the family ready has always been a weak point. Now with my wife out of town for two weeks it comes time to see how committed I am to my decision and vision. In the morning I will get myself up and get ready my little ones and set off for church. The kids enjoy it, and I always feel better once I get out the door and on our way. I think it will be a great day regardless of the sermon.